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So, I lost three pounds last week.  You’d think I’d be doing awesome and all that…but I was actually shocked I’d lost anything because I’ve been slipping.  *gasp*  Yeah, bad I know.  It hasn’t been a lot, but a little here, a little there….and I find myself sliding so effortlessly back into the bad ole ways again. 

I’ve got the right mindset now, I’m VERY aware of what I’m doing now (which I wasn’t before, oddly enough) and I know what it’s doing to me….so that’s good.  I’m not sitting contentedly in oblivious land anymore .  But I find it harder to maintain diet and exercise on a consistent basis…like I was at the beginning of this all.  I’ve actually lost count of what the heck week I’m on anyway…and I don’t really care because who cares when I started?  This is for forever now.  And I KNOW it’s always going to be a bit of a struggle for me…I’m good with that.  I get that.  So it’s really all about finding ways to deal with the struggle.

I read somewhere (I read WAY too much…it’s almost unhealthy…just ask my husband!! LOL!)…Anyway, I read somewhere that you should make 10-30 mins a day to read motivational, diet/exercise info to help keep you in the right mindset. 

It’s so true.  I know when I’m reading a book on diet or exercise it’s easier to maintain what I’m doing because it’s constantly on my mind and in focus.  I find when I force myself to read motivational quotes…they stick in my head for a while and help me when I want to slack and eat bad things or not exercise.

 Soo…..now I’ve instituted mandatory quote reading for myself every morning.  To help me keep what I’m doing in focus and so they’re fresh in my mind when I go to sin.  Every morning.  Every lunch time.  I have to read a quote.  Not a big thing…but it helps….

 All this was a long, explanatory way of asking for YOUR help…  :)  Do any of you have any quotes, favorite or otherwise, to share?  Anything you say to yourself, you’ve read somewhere that you thought was funny or helpful??  I’ll take any thing I can get…there’s never enough!!

 Thank you buddies!!! 

So Happy St. Paddy’s day to ya’ll out there!!  Hope you’re having a wonderful day of green!  (I coloured my water green for this momentus day….who knew it would turn my teeth green too? LOL!  At least my girls find me amusing!  Ever try to talk sternly to a four year old when your teeth are green??  For some reason…it just doesn’t work!)

I am now 1 pound….1 measly stinking pound…..away from reaching my huge goal!!  WA-HOO!!!  I’m so proud and happy!!  LOL!  I’ve been on this platuea for so long…then I splurged and had some cookies this weekend…very big bad YUMMY cookies….and I find out Monday I’ve lost 3 lbs!! LOL!  I told my hubby I should give up the diet and live on these cookies!!  Of course all in jest…who knows, maybe I’d be at my goal already if I hadn’t had them…but I don’t really care.  They were worth it, I enjoyed it and I feel NO GUILT!

If I can’t have a cookie now and then I’ll go nuts and eat out a store and I’ll be back where I was!  LOL!  And THAT was not a pretty place to be! 

 Anyway…I’m so freaking happy today I don’t even need coffee to get me going!   Of course…I’m still drinking coffee.  Duh.  LOL!  Maybe it’ll help counteract the effects of the green water!!  Coffee’s good for EVERYTHING (in my world at least….it’s like duct tape!).

Here’s to a cheery, merry, happy wonderful day of luck to everyone!!! 

Enjoy your green day…I’ll be enjoying mine!!

I have so MANY wonderful excuses these days.  And they’re totally legitimate too!  Like, TOM was around giving me cramps from the netherword from which he hails, then I did some dumb thing to my hip (still not sure what) and I was walkin’ around like a gymp (at least my daughters got a good laugh out of that), then…without too many details here…I wore some old pants while working out and ended up with some chafing on my legs…talk about pain!

There’s so many good ones, I’ve really got my pick!  But …. I’m not using them?  *gasp* What???  I’m NOT? 

Nope. 

I am woman…hear me….wimper while crawling back on the treadmill.  But crawl back on I do!!

I used to MAKE excuses so I wouldn’t have to work out…but not anymore.  Every time I get a great, legitimate excuse….I freak out and rush to a workout before I can talk myself into not working out!  I’m so scared I’ll talk myself OUT of it, that I talk myself INTO it!!  I’m doing the hokey pokey without taking “my whole self” out!  LOL!  I guess that leaves me standing there shaking it all about!!  Shake with me people!!

Yeah, I’m a head case all right.  But hey, what ever gets you going eh??  LOL!

 AAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand………not only am I STILL doing my treadmilling and all that jazz….I’ve bumped up my game and gone from 2.5 to 3 miles!!  In the same time limit!! So Wooo-hoo baby!!

 To quote a WONDERFUL song from the Rocky Soundtrack (thanks again Mary girl!):

“hearts on fire
strong desire
rages deep within
hearts on fire
fever’s rising high
the moment of truth draws near”

 Here’s to firing up our hearts!!! 

I don’t know about the rest of you…but music is a HUGE motivator for me.  It gets me on the treadmill when all I really want to do is sit and inhale coffee with my eyes closed.

But I NEED, desperately need, some new music to get me going.  I’m begging anyone and everyone I know to give me some ideas!!   PLEASE!!!!  :)  It doesn’t have to be something you work out to, or even like, but ANY ideas for artists or songs would be HUGELY appreciated. 

And don’t worry.  I LOVE everything (except rap, I’m very sorry, there’s just not enough coffee in the world to take me there)…I’ve been on a Great Big Sea, Pink, Ace of Base, John Cougar Mellencamp and Bach kick.  But I need something to shake it up…. anything with a good beat, good lyrics….ANYTHING…. I’m a music floozy, or a music strumpet if you prefer, I have no standards at all!

 Any ideas??  I’m putting down my coffee to get down and grovel and beg here….face to the floor….I’m desperate! 

 Please please please please please!!!!! 

Okay, I will admit to being dumb, and dumb about many many things but specifially today… to not knowing if everyone does the stupid time change.  But for those of you who do…you have my express sympathies.  We should all move to Saskatchewan.  That’s like the only thing it’s got going for it!  NO time change!  It would TOTALLY be worth the move in my opinion!  Just have to talk my hubby around to the whole no job, no house thing.

 Anyway!  The stupid setting foward of the clocks (”spring forward” my a$$…dragged forward screaming and kicking is more apropos)…has left me glazed and glugging coffee.  Who knew an hour would make a difference??

 I STILL worked out, and I STILL am eating right, so it’s great I’m not using it as an excuse for bad behavior…but still!!  Needed to vent and whine a bit before I paste on my smile and do my naked dancing. 

 Or drown myself in coffee.   What a way to go.

 Here’s to coffee, the life giving, sanity saving grace from God,…and ending all time changes everywhere! 

“Every day is a chance to build momentum or to slack.” 

This is the note that now greets me first thing every morning.  I can manage to wander out to the kitchen and find the coffee pot with my eyes closed, but since I have to open them to start the darn thing, that’s when I really first open my eyes.  For coffee.  Heh.  SO that’s what I see.  And since I seem to be currently attached to my coffee pot in ways that are probably bad, I get to be reminded of this about 60 times a day.

 And it helps.  

Because every day you HAVE to choose…and every is a new day, a new beginning, and new opportunity to do even better….or even worse.  Every day, you have to decide to make the right choices…every time to have to choose…you have to decide to make the right choice.  Every time I want to eat or slack or workout or blink…I have to think now…is this the right choice for me?  For being healthy?  The blinking part usually gets a pass, but the rest is a bit harder!  :) 

Since I need my coffee so badly… I’m making the choice to build momentum now.  If only so I can keep going back for more coffee without guilt. 

Hey, we all need our reasons, right??

So here’s to a weekend of great choices and a building of momentum….and more coffee!!! 

Just wanted to give a HUGE, huge huge huge huge huge!, Thank You! to everyone for the wonderful support!!  I don’t know how I’d be doing this without ya’ll!!  I don’t take enough time to thank all the great people in my life, and I figured why not start today??  (I hate naming names, because someone always gets left out and I don’t want to leave anyone out because you’re all so wonderful and important!!!) 

Weightloss is very much a time when you have to focus on yourself and your choices…and it’s very much a priority until you’ve changed your life so that healthy choices are the norm, and not the hard part.  It’s very hard to do this when those around you don’t support you….because support matters SO much!

 You guys are a great support and I thank you all for all your help!!  All of the emails, blogs, comments and boosters really help, REALLY help, and I appreicate all the time you take to make them!!!  Thank you SOO much!!  You help challenge me, and hold me accountable…and that’s the best support a girl could ask for!

Most of all, I want to thank my guy, my wonderful amazing husband, who is the most loving and supportive person I’ve ever known.  (how on earth did I manage to get a guy like you??) He gets up every morning, gets ready, and stops his breakfast halfway thru so he can come back and wake me up with cuddles and back tickles…how much better is that than some stinkin’ alarm clock honking in your face???  I mean, what a way to start the day!!  He helps motivate me to work out when I don’t want to, but never makes me feel bad when I don’t.  He loves me as I am, but wants to help me be the person I want to be, and he never begrudges anything with my weightloss, not the time it takes, or the fact that we eat different meals…nothing.  And that’s so amazing!  I never say thank you enough…

 So thank you!  Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you!

 To him, and all of you…. thank you for all your support!  I’d never have made this far without you, and I need to thank you all more often!!!

THANK YOU!!! 

Okay, so this post has two parts.  Any help with either would be very much appreciated.  First…hopefully not too much detail here….I’m having some TOM questions.   Does weightloss make it worse??  I never used to have cramps or tenderness in the upper chest regions, or break out in pimples, or be a psycho from hell….but now WOW…it’s shocking!  The cramps make me double over, I have zits all over my face (and I NEVER broke out, even as a teenager), and I want to kill everything in sight.  As painfully as possible.  Is this the weightloss?  (I’ve also been off BC…but it’s been two months now, it shouldn’t effect me like this should it??)  Any ideas?

The second part is more fun, but nothing to do with weightloss, but I figured since you were all fun and creative I’d give this a shot here.  I’m trying to come up with creative jobs my husband might have.  Background: he works for the goverment as a number man, but since everyone gets a glazed look on their face when he explains his job, he doesn’t anymore.  It frustrated him and he has no interest in boring people.  So I’m trying to liven things up, and save him some frustration.  I’ve tried to find an easy way to explain what he does…but it’s too complex…and honestly…boring.

 Soooooo……we’re going to a wedding in a couple of weeks, and everyone will ask the old “So what do you do?” And I want to come up with as many creative and outlandish jobs as I can and try and see what I can make people believe he does, or at least say with a straight face.  So far I have:

Pool boy, elephant trainer, secret agent, assassin, grave digger, beautician/hairdresser…. and I’m serioulsy struggling to come up with weird and funny and outlandish jobs.  Heard of any?  Know of any? 

Any ideas?  C’mon ladies…you’re the most inspirational and creative bunch I know….  ANY ideas would be welcome!! 

BTW…yes.  I’m a freak.  And I’m proud of it! 

So every now and again, we take our cars in for a tune up, and have them overhauled.  Sometimes we do this regularly, we should.  But for SOME of us…we wait until something’s not working right and THEN we take them in. 

 Well, I fall into the second category.  And while my life isn’t an engine, and nor am I….same thing applies. 

And same thing applied to my weightloss.   I’ve been slipping here and there and just not being 100% diligent like I need to be right now.  And this wasn’t working for me or my weightloss. 

My weightloss “engine” started making some really funky noises, and had a hitch in it’s go motion.  So this weekend, I took it in, and had it overhauled.  I changed my diet, changed my exercise routine, and gave myself some new motivation to work out (in the form of a heartrate monitor…I’m a gadget girl…just call me go go gadget!  I LOVE that thing…I want to exercise all the time now just so I can “play” with it!).  I sat down and looked at what wasn’t working, why it wasn’t working…and I changed it.    

 And I’m running smoothly now.  No more funky noises…so it’s time to step on the gas pedal baby!  Here we go! 

I’ll probably have to have my engine overhauled again….but next time I’m going try and do it before the funky noises show up!!  LOL! 

Here’s to stepping on the gas and flying forward!!

Okay, so I have “scale syndrome”….I’ve been using the scale to determine my progress…and since I have a scale war going on, this is not good.  See, I had a little…moment….this weekend, a brief period of insanity and I ended up destroying things for fun.  Heh.  Yeah, it was fun all right.

 A little background on the destruction though, so I don’t seem so…freaky insane.  See, I have three scales in my house.  One I’ve been using since I started and it’s the one I always use.  But then I had a bit of a freak out…going…maybe the scale is wrong!!  *gasp* Maybe the tape measure is lying!  Maybe I weigh so much I broke the freaking thing.  So, still not too badly freaked out, I figure, hey I’ve got two other scales…I’ll see what they say.  The result?  Not good.  One said I weighed MORE than what I started at, 289 pounds the first time, and then 267 the second. And the other?  Well, it said I weighed 358 pounds.   The first time.  The second, 126.  And while I liked the second number more, I figured the first was more likely.   But neither could possibly be right. 

Instead of taking the one that always says the same weight no matter how many times a a day I weigh myself on it…I panicked.  Flipped right out.  I had to spaz out on my husband, who calmly said…see what it says for the girls.  RIGHT!  Why didn’t I think of that?  Apparently my four year old weighs 189 pounds.  Or 326.  Or 15.  Ooooooorr….maybe she weighs 42…repeatedly, on my “normal” scale??

 So…I got upset with the stupid scales for taunting my paranoia.  And I had a long talk with them over a hammer.  Who knew there were so many parts to these things??

The conclusion of this ramble?  Don’t let scales be the “be all end all.”  The inches count.  How your clothes are fitting, counts.  How you can walk up the stairs without having an intermission half way up, counts.  How I can see all of stomach now, when that was never possible before…counts.  There’a  lot of ways to measure progress….this week I’m going to measure my progess not in pounds…but in how I stick to my eating and exercising plan, and not slacking off. 

That counts.  Most.  (to me)